Holiday Blues

Hello, all of you:

For those of you who have known me a long time, you guys know that the holidays haven't been a good time for me in regards to being away from my grandparents. Usually, it was bearable because I always had M's family to spend it with. Any holiday--Easter, Thanksgiving, you name it...I was always included. So I didn't feel so bad nor so lonely.

But these are the first holidays since the break up. I've been trying to keep myself busy because if I keep myself busy I don't have to think about it. Spent some time at the store a little later for a couple of weeks--cleaning and what not.

But it's Christmas, and although I'm going to be doing some baking later, I can't bring myself to feel any joy. I know I have a lot to be thankful for, but alas, the blues are here and I don't quite know what to do to quiet their roars....

Inhale/exhale...



Well, just wanted to put that out in the universe in the hopes that I can quit thinking about it now that it is the universe.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

Peace.