Day 26: Love 'Em & Leave 'Em (30 Days of Days)

Day 26: The Day Someone Left and Never Came Back (not death related)

May 19, 2008.

I had the morning shift at the restaurant job.  Mondays are normally pretty slow.  I was hoping to get out somewhat early because I had some errands to run.  I would actually have time to cook.  I still hadn't gotten adjusted to cooking just for myself.  I still wanted to be considerate, despite the situation.

I got into the house a little bit after seven.  I put down the bags.  I decided I wanted to get on the computer just before I started cooking. 

I noticed the computer screen was different.  Microsoft Word was open.  I was trying to remember if I had been writing or working on a blog entry the night before.  I recalled that I wasn't.

Then, I noticed the correspondence was addressed to me.  It was only half a page, but it was to the point.

I found it funny the typed letter was “hard to write.”  I just felt like if it was so hard, M could have waited until I got there and told me to my face that after about five and a half years our relationship was over. 

Yes, I still would have been angry, but I would have had more respect for M.  The way everything was done, I felt, was quite cowardly.

That day, I knew why a female would get tempted to slash someone else’s tires.  I had thoughts about it; it kind of frightened me. 

Even when my breakups ended badly, I never had that desire rise up.  Only exception was my abusive ex-fiancé’. 

This was when I ultimately decided I needed a break from relationships.  I no longer felt joy when thinking of one.  I needed to work on myself and have time to myself. 

Day 26, that’s a wrap!